“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
― Ernest Hemingway
I used to watch you get dressed in the morning, put your lipgloss on, I wanted to be just like you, you had a smile that could light up any room. you taught me that time waits for no one, I watched as you jumped over or crawled under the hurdles life placed in front of you, I saw how each one made you stronger with another lesson learned. With the flip of a switch slowly you began to disappear everyday more and more, and the girl I wanted to be was no longer my reflection… I became someone else… I became my pain.
With each battle I overcame, although it made me stronger, it also broke me down a little bit each time. My life wasn’t perfect, but at least I smiled, I didn’t have it all but I had my smile, I smiled through the pain and fought through the tears and it got me through. Somewhere along my journey I got lost and became my pain. I turned to “easy way out” solutions instead of facing my battles head on. As they say; Rome wasn’t built in a day, I can’t expect that I will overcome a obstacle in one day, life doesn’t work that way, unfortunately.
About 2 years ago I started blogging again and at first I started a food blog, but wanted to do more so DunEenWorryWifIt was created. When I first started I didn’t want anyone to know that I was the author of the site, no matter how good I felt my content was I was just too afraid of judgement. As time went on I learned to be proud of what I do. People will find a way to pass judgement on me, my life and what I do with my life, so I am going to live and do what makes ME happy. I didn’t realise that I had so many readers that looked forward to my daily post, who needed to hear/read what I was writing, but when I got my fan emails I was even more pushed to continue sharing my journeys and stories.
This is my blog, my NOT so private diary. With each keystroke I feel like I am closer to being the old me, although I may not have the smile I once had, my smile shows my pain and the trials I have overcome, it shows that just like you, I am human with flaws and all.