Category Archives: Death,Murder&Grieving

Death, Murder & Your Mind

I have never been one to deal with death of a loved one in a good way, I just can not seem to come to grips with death. The first funeral I ever attended or remember attending I was going in my second year of middle school, and I was totally in denial, I swore down that the man in the coffin was not my papa. It didn’t hit me until the day after, that he was really gone, that it was really him lying there and that I will never see him again. I guess deep down I knew that he would die, as will all of us in our time. I just didn’t think that I would see the day it happened, I mean he was my grandpa, he was the father figure in my life. I guess I selfishly expected him to live forever, as I am sure many of you feel the same, regarding your loved ones. Death, Murder and your Mind are a combination that I don’t wish on anyone, no one should have to endure the emotional pain that comes with it, but unfortunately at some point we do.

Grieving…

Question… When is the best time, the right time, the perfect moment to receive the news that a loved one has passed and gone??

Often times well actually most times when we receive the “are you sitting down call” we know that what our ears are about to hear is the very thing your going to regret the minute it gets a chance to reach your brain and your emotions analyze it. There is no perfect, right or best time to receive such news. We as humans try to lessen the hurt by telling ourselves before hand things like ” they will be in a better place, at least they won’t have any more suffering” but truth be told no matter what you tell yourself when the reality of it all hits you the strength of the blow will always be the same and it will always leave a bruise….

Passing The Blame

It’s a sad world that we live in were all people do is pass the blame around it’s like a game of musical chairs… everyone knows the dilemma coming into the game so it’s just a matter of who is going to get caught out and who will be the one to win. Why is it so hard for people to either accept ownership or carefully assess the situation to come up with a valid enough reason instead of passing it on to the next person whom you see fit deserves the blame.

Lately in Bermuda there has been a lot of violence for such a small Island. Everyone is basically grasping at straws trying to find the best reason, the best piece of the puzzle to squeeze into a spot where it doesn’t fit, but they are so busy trying to see A picture, ANY picture that they don’t even see their mistakes.

Enough??

When does enough become enough???

Although it’s difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow…

This morning I woke up to another shooting… it really makes me wonder what is wrong or better yet what is right with the world today. Another mother has to bury her son, another father has to wonder if he done something wrong, another family is left mourning.

Dealing with the death of a loved one especially a murder is never easy, there are no “how to” books on how to grieve or ways to get over it, its just a process that one must go through alone.

Good Die Young

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Gone But Not Forgotten….

Have you ever just sat and let your thoughts run wild? Well I did that today, I started to think about those whom we have lost. Its weird how we say we will never forget them or never be able to live without them but after a few weeks or so everyone’s life is pretty much back to normal. I understand that you are unable to stop living because someone close to you has passed and gone, but sometimes I feel a little guilty like I shouldn’t go a day without thinking about them but then I remember that they would not want me to be unhappy so I keep them close to my heart everyday.